BEING INNOCENT

Today, when our nation is celebrating so-called children's day, did they ever had a thought on the children who are suffering like hell in this country....
Here I am sharing with you ppl, a story of little girl aged thirteen who is living in this same country with the pain and betrayal ...

Sitting in the corner of the room wondering how disgusting my life had been and how much difficulties I have faced through out my life.I was raised up by my own mother, but never knew or saw what a mother's love is. I was more like a slave for her.Not only me, my other four sisters was also the same for her. It's not she hated us, it's 'cause that was her situation.Our family was facing a loadz of financial problems. Maybe that's because her life ain't settled down yet. She had so many marriages,but none of them were successfull, always end with a seperation. But she had around each child for every marriage. Having so many children at that age wasn't so good for her, neither for us.

So we weren't brought up that nicely, we grew up as poor children which we spent most of our times in hunger and as beggers.Seeing other children goin school, I really wanted to go to school, but knew that my mother can't effort that much.When I was 7 years old my mother sent me to a house as a servent girl. Though I was seven years old, I knew almost all of the household works which almost all of the time i used to do at home.I went to a rich family house, where almost all of them were pretty good and kind. They gave me the admission to school and was happy about that.But there also couldn't settled down myself 'cause of my mother. She told me to steal little things from there and get money for her.I couldn't ignore her, so i did what she told me to do. Days, weeks, months passed on and I spent in that house for around a year.After that I got busted to them, and they sent me back to my mom. I knew that one day that day will come and again I went to home, which has no different from Hell. After spending three weeks there mom sent me to my stepfather's island.Sitting in the 'dhoani' i looked at my island, which gave me so much pain in this little age. I looked at the clear blue sky and wondered why i wasn't like the blue sky, so clear so nice, so beautiful, seemed like it was resting in it's position without any problem.
I felt a strange feeling when I came to the island. It was full of stranger, even i was received by a stranger, it seemed like he was a friend of my stpefather. He talked to me with a friendly face. He took me to some house where i had no idea about. When I asked him he told me that it was his house. I was confuesd, I asked him why?? He gave me a smile and told me that my stepfather's house is full at this time that's why I should stay at his home. From that moment onwards my heart started beating faster as i was so afraid. Again I was in Hell. This time it's worse than before. Not having any idea about what to do I just kept myslef silent.Days passed on.... I was so confused about what was happening all around me... If I want to go to my stepfather's house or if I wanted to make a call i've got to do a favour for him, and which i should never tell to anyone about those favours. I hated to do those favours to him.I should get naked infron of him and dance or play those kindah games with him. At that time I had no idea about what they really were.But after readin a book I came to know what those were, but couldn't help myslef to get out of it neither i could ask someone else for help.Those favours got bigger and bigger day by day, just drove me so crazy, but was doing those favours like a helpless, disabled creature. I did try to tell to my stepdad but he didn't beleive me. After spending six months with him i became so weak and got sick. 'cause of my sickness he sent me to my island to my mom.

After weeks I realized that I was pregnant, was pregnant at the age of 14. My mom asked me about it and i told her, she was like outta her mind. Later we came to know that my stpefather was by that man's side as he gave him money. It was like he had sold me. But who will beleive us ??

After my pregnancy people started to talk about me, saying that i had an affair and became pregnant. There was nothing I can do about that, Me or my mother couldn't stop them, but they never had thought about the pain I have gone through. Gossiping about an innocent girl was there pleasure, but they never gave a thought on what the reality was.

Now I'm taking medicines, as I can't carry the baby.

My life has ended up here...... my whole future is ruined...still questioning god what I have done to make all these soo sooo wrong...what was my MISTAKE......is dat being innocent ??? Now I don't hope or dream for a better life than this ....'cause there's nothing to hope.......everything has ended up here....